some guy paid the pants 100 dollars to watch him jerk off and here is the funny comment i said about that (i'm funny remember don't forget)
i have to talk to fil i think i am getting ripped off.
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oh i also said who cares about school cos you have a hot body.
you guys would tell me right if i was being that guy at the party who is a creepy perv and follows you around everywhere basically one million per cent of my blog readers.
Saturday, October 14, 2006
raymi, the blog arena is a fucking disaster. people think they are engaged in social interaction... but it is just bullshit. fuck this social paradigm. get out while you can.
and sure i could just accept the fact that it exists and deal with it like any cool/casual person would.
that is not what is happening here.
imposition is part of everything. -keith
i couldnt tell if yer comment was dissing me or not (in your comment on my blog) -raymi
nah, it wasn't dissing you.
i happen to think that you must be an interesting person based on the evidence. but even if i was dissing you... who gives a shit?
in the name of being an affable chap i will explain in a less rant-like way what i was saying. (i am just going to assume that you care)
i don't understand why people idolize other people... which is what many people seem to do with you... you are able to articulate the things they think in their fucked up little under-powered angst brains and they dig you for it... i believe that someone looking at you and thinking that you "get it" is just a complete misunderstanding of existence on their part... there is nothing to get... talented people are just recognizing elements of their situation and improvising interesting things... any number of people can be said to "get it" just because they are perceptive... there is nothing that a perceptive person is actually getting... they are just improvising using their wit. (i don't claim to know anything about you in your actual life... this is all stemming from what i have observed in this fetid-shit realm of blog-world) so some people, as you were saying, want to be on the inside of the abrasive shell that you put up... and making a comment along those lines or expres
sing that interest makes them lame, unless you were some tortured guy that had been in jail and some hot gentle chick fell in love with you and dropped the "let me in line"... but that is not what is going on here... if people say shit like that it is lame. if they want to be on the inside then they should be clutch and honest enough to get on the inside and if they can't do that then they should shut the fuck up and spend time with less interesting people that they can handle.
the only thing that could be construed as me making fun of you was saying that responding to insecure -pussy-people's critiques of your way of being was a pussy move in itself. but moves like that are unavoidable... we are all insecure on certain levels...
and to highlight the complementary aspect... i meant to point out that you seem to have a natural edge on people and that the criticism that you recieve probably stems from them sensing that they are inferior.
and in a related area of thought
i fucking hate emails and i hate blogs because the disjointed dialectics that this medium breeds just don't work in the way that i want my interactions to work... there are always problems with interpretation and tone and all sorts of bullshit that isn't nearly as much of a problem in the face-to-face.
but now this, like the ambiguous comment, is getting up to the length of chore-reading.
you ask a question and answer it in the same sentence
im manic and what i put on my blog is just an exercise and not me being pussy
it's material dude
and i rarely do the emo interpretation posts like i use to so when i DO do em they stand out and seem juvenile i suppose
no one has ever said let me in to me
writing that on my blog was the first time i have ever said/written it
i think i was trying to puff myself up perhaps
but all those conversations did happen
and i dont have a wall up it's just the way i have always been
insecurity and above itness and boredom
i also can be very shy and people forget that so they take me as being snobby and all that other shit bla bla i don't take myself as being complex, pretty straight forward but if other people want to see me as a mystery that's nice
makes for good movie material
ALSO ONE OF MY MOST FAVORITE POSTS
thora birch as boner. probably one of my greater posts i don't think i can top it well maybe if i wrote about ants with gigantic dicks or something i am drunk still can you tell?
oh yeah fil also had a HERO OF THE WORLD moment last nite.
we were leaving the dance cave (there only cos it's attached to lee's which is where the show was) roxanne was with us too btw and she touches this dude's afro who is smooching with some girl in a booth and then i of course had to touch his hair too and fil got super drunk jealous and we fought about it all the way to the tap and then the dude who punched me after i kicked him after he called me a cunt was spare-changing the street and half-way through my getting out of trouble for squeezing some kid's afro speech i said THAT'S THE GUY WHO PUNCHED ME BY THE WAY and then fil turned into hulk and followed the guy like stalked him leaving me and roxanne smoking outside of the tap and he gets as far as lee's palace and we can't make him out anymore cos of all the people on the sidewalk and drunk blindedness so we run after him and he's outside that tattoo place giving this crackhead a lecture and the crackhead has zero recollection of it even happening he also looks a little bit afraid and i feel bad for him but still feel obligated to tell him what happened and bla bla he apologized and fil said it was because he knew that fil was about to kick his ass pfffft. fil pointed at me and said THAT'S A GIRL.
he even did the DON'T APOLOGIZE TO ME APOLOGIZE TO HER thing. ahah.
i almost said to the guy hey your hair got a little longer but stopped myself.
yay fil defender of the world.
ga blaaah fil couldn't sleep anymore so he woke me up i know it's one in the afternoon but hello last nite was friday which means i only went to bed 9 hours ago (4amish) ok i know that sounds uh lazy of me but anyway he woke me up by watching some show about ghosts and he doesn't even believe in that shit. i fell asleep in the spins position and this asshole wakes me up to people's re-enacted ghost experiences. the swear word for what i am feeling right now has not been invented yet.
the moral of the story is people who believe in ghosts are stupid.
it's funny when someone is telling you about some time when they were in a haunted house or something and they go on and on and you have to listen like you give a shit/believe them. HEY DUDE AWESOME CAN YOU TELL ME ALL ABOUT YOUR DREAMS NEXT AND FOLLOW IT UP WITH PICTURES OF YOUR BABIES!?
Friday, October 13, 2006
Lee's Palace Friday October 13: Toronto Indie Rock CD Release
'DIABLEROS' @ 12:00, 'Uncut' @ 11:00, and 'Sylvie' @ 10:00. $10.00 at the door.
this is what we are doing tonite. i have changed my outfit a hundred times. i do not know how to pronounce diableros no matter how many times fil corrects me my marbles are lost. lindsay lohan dropped me from her myspace friends list so in homage to that my next masterpiece will be a drawing of her vagina.
oh look it's me lamenting la lohan.
here is your weekend homework assignment find a blogger with a 75 degree nose like mine, straight as an arrow, with no bumps and super duper long. GOOD LUCK.
ok so i'm a savant right which means i ask questions like PAUL NEWMAN BROKE INTO ACTING COS OF HIS SALAD DRESSING? yep.
sabbyc: i was at a bar last night
me: oh yeah
sabbyc: and some faggot from google was there
sabbyc: and he was like BLAH BLAH BLAH I WORK AT GOOGLE
and i was PLASTERED
sabbyc: and he kept grabbing my ass
and my friend went to beat him up
sabbyc: and i was like HEY I AM FAMOUS ON THE INTERNET BECAUSE OF YOUR STUPID COMPANY
and then he started freaking out
and wanted to know my blog
did u tell him mine!?!?
sabbyc: and i wouldnt tell him
me: i hope u did
sabbyc: i did
me: no way
sabbyc: i kept saying I KNOW RAYMI
me: does he know who raymi is
sabbyc: no, he didnt know who any of us were
he was a techie with tiny hands and a rolex
and i kept making fun of his rolex
and he kept trying to sit next to me
and my sister would make me get up and change places
so he could not
me: if it made ticking sounds then it was a fake
me: your 6 year old sister?
sabbyc: no, i have a bunch of sisters
me: i was kidding
sabbyc: sometimes, i can get her into bars though
the lil one
me: thats wicked
ok so what is the moral of the google story
sabbyc: that i know where the google people in los angeles hang out
and i am going to keep going there and torturing them
and writing about it
go there for halloween dressed as google
me: which is various search items
sabbyc: i could write google really big on my titties
and be like I AM A MARKETING SCHEME
me: like fucking sucking butt plugs
me: hang on i am blogging this and linking u
i hope that guy googles me
me: and reads it
sabbyc: he was a pig though
me: i bet
sabbyc: because he ran up behind me and was feeling up my ass
i bet his penis is not even there
he is probably like a ken doll
me: he may work there but i am prolly more famous than he is on google
sabbyc: no shit
me: what did he look like
sabbyc: he was really blonde and his name was mike and his friend's name was andrew
and they were super proud to be working at google
me: did he drive a ferrari
sabbyc: i dunno
he wanted to come with me and my sister was like WE WILL KNIFE YOU
but they were at a bar in santa monica
me: is santa monica tacky?
it is yuppiesville
sabbyc: whenever everyone is poor
and we have to drink
we go there
me: good one
sabbyc: and we get some google type fool to pick up our tab
he bought like 23984324324 drinks
and my sister would throw my drinks on the floor
and make him buy me more
ok lets talk about survivor
last week i boycotted it cos of that bird thing now i know everyone was all EXCUSE ME THAT IS A MYTH THE MOM WON'T DISOWN THE BABY IF IT IS TOUCHED BLABLABLABLA. i simply don't fucking care if it is true or not the fact is you don't ever interfere with nature, there's a code isn't there by all photographers and filmmakers in the wild you do not get involved despite how sad it is when an antelope is slaughtered by a lion that's the way it is circle of life etc. therefore how is it permissible if some douche goes up a tree and rifles through a nest cos he thought the bird was distressed? it isn't permissible. the end. and the bird is distressed COS YOU'RE IN ITS TERRITORY CLIMBING UP ITS FUCKING TREE AND PICKING UP ITS BABY HOLY SHIT.
anyway that was last week and obviously it is out of my head now so survivor is on.
i spent an hour this morning fantasizing about being on survivor and played out the various layers or raymi/lauren i would reveal to my tribe and i'm realistic even in my fantasies i know i wouldn't win the million but i would come close and get a lot of exposure and be brought back on for survivor all stars and other reality spin-offs what's that i was talking about? right, REALISM.
anyway that asian guy has the flattest face in the world even flatter than the guy in tokyo drift oooh i smell a RAYMI POLL! i guess this week is asian week on my blog. next week will be polish and so on.
**ok there's no point cos yul kwon's face is clearly flatter as previously predicted by me.
since the crying breakthrough of click any movie that won't reduce fil to tears is shit. we rented art school confidential last nite and it was crappy and long and tries to suck you into this storyline instead of what it should be doing, slapstick art school jokes. it was so trying to be like girl next door, the girl looks kind of like elisha cuthbert and the dude looks like the twink from girl next door as well. HI ORIGINALITY WHERE ARE YOU?
at least we did it afterwards.
some parts are good and funny but 1/3 through you are like B O R I N G. there's loads they could've done with this premise and they fully didn't take advantage of it. even malkovich was pretty weak.
Thursday, October 12, 2006
WELCOME TO RAYMI'S FIRST EVER BEST BLOG POST POLL/CONTEST
i have two different blog posts to choose from. read them both then vote which one you liked better. i haven't decided on a prize yet but the first prize is being able to say i got first place.
CHEAT ON MY BROTHER WHENEVER YOU WANT DUDE
IT'S WHITES DAY
i bought this hat today it's been awhile since i had a hat that didn't make me look like a homeless dirtbag/eccentric lunatic spinster. i got a sweater from h&m too great score and for once it doesn't have stripes or polka dots all over it. i am growing up. then i bought some organic vegetarian food but only cos it's prepared already and right beside queen video where i rented art school confidential.
today scores 9.8/10 for hipster.
yesterday i took that iq test and i got 129 and i cheated a little bit too cos by the 8th page i was super impatient with it. anyway fil and i argued over one of the questions for at least TWO HOURS all together. first at the green room then on the couch in front of the television then i brought it up again in bed and then this morning also. i see his way of thinking but i also think i am right and believe that there are two possible answers to this question and i am not going to post what the question is or my answer until i ask a few other people first.
the moral of the story is fil thinks he knows everything but he doesn't.
not to be a racialist or anything but is it like a requirement for all asians especially chicks to dig radiohead/thom yorke? just wondering, love raymi.
the moral of the story is every asian person i know is super into radiohead specifically kid-a and onward i just wanted to know why.
if you're feeling extra-curricular you could tell me the story behind the just video also.
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
me: u forget to bring yer hotdog and hamburger jars to work deary
its very important u dont forget
they will probably get you promoted
Phil: yes totally - remind me tomorrow
Phil: how foolish of me
Phil: i have to take my job more seriously and bring the proper tools of the trade in like a mini jar of burgers and hotdogs
me: I KNOW
i stayed up reading til past two then i tried to molest fil in his sleep but gave up i have a headache it is chilly i'm going to return the movie and go eat in a dark corner by myself and draw pictures of people sherri said i have a wall around me and people don't know how to get to know me or be around me and i said that's just how i am built up coolness and stef said i am only popular on the internet and radmad said girls must not like being around me much that's three insults in three days from three different girls even stefan/snake said i was abrasive like very abrasive.
i get abrasive on purpose to push people away i guess and some people take it way personally but even times i am not being abrasive just you know being me, saying nothing, people get offended by that too like they are expecting me to be yelling all the time and telling stories that don't go anywhere. if you want to get "in" you don't have to be invited you know just like, come in already.
anyway people feel the need to tell me their opinions about me all the time and even to my face whereas i have the tact to keep the shit i think about them to myself and i know where it comes from it's something like jealousy mixed with hate and appreciation but mostly they hate me cos i exist cos whatever it is they may think i am about it's annoying to know there is someone like me in the world who is "abrasive" who "gets it" when it's always suppose to be them and not me. whatever.
HEY DOODS THANKS FOR THE UNWARRANTED PSYCHO-ANALYSIS NOW IT'S MY TURN TO DO YOU!!
just saing hi to one of my favorite people
fuck you i hate you
why would you hate me?
cos yer a prick with a crappy life and you take it out on other people
who do i take it out on?
people better than you
i have to go. have a good day
i'm not suppose to tell what i am about to write but i am going to anyway cos i am proud of it. we rented click last nite and while parts are quite funny there's a lot of depressing scenes and FIL CRIED. we are coming up to our 2 year anniversary and i have not once seen him cry but this adam sandler movie finally made him cry. thinking back to other movies we've seen i now think maybe he was secretly crying to other shit and now i know the way he covers it up. of course i was bawling, tears pooling at my chin under my lip, blind ugly crying and i look over at fil and i see tears. then i yelled THIS IS A BREAKTHROUGH FOR OUR RELATIONSHIP a hundred times and smothered him with kissing and other barf-inducing/jealousy shit if you are single and witnessed it. fil is going to kill me and prolly never cry again but oh well. nice knowing you guys/blog. oh and yes some of it was drunk-crying but STILL it was crying.
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
there's this kid with longish hair who hangs out in the park a lot. i guess him to be maybe 11 years oldish. he's pretty obnoxious tho i feel sort of bad for him. he wasn't around over the summer but last year before school was over he'd hang around the park every afternoon for a loooong time and play with anyone there who could tolerate him. he's kind of chubby and his hair you can tell he is growing it out to fit in or something. where the fuck are his parents though? don't they care that their son is playing out in the cold in a t-shirt? anyway right now he's running around talking on a cellphone while slapping the monkey bars pretty loud and yelling. IRRITATING.
worst resume ever