i understand your hatred towards the douchey clerks.
i try my hardest not to be one of those chicks
i know what they wear looks better on them than me
sux but its true and im not bitter
i work at a c-store and there are tons of fit attractive chicks that
come into the store wearing things i wish i could even think about buying
and regardless of what their wearing its my job to be nice. everyone has SOMETHING
to say about everything.
i think the things you wear are so creative, look good and seem to fit the
mood your'e in for the day, or moment. anyway...
theres no point to this email really, i had a few too many jackncokes after work and
and just putting off bed cuz that means i hafta wake up and go to work in the am....
im sure sometimes it doesnt feel like you're appreciated, and surely very few
people actaully know the real lauren, but when it comes down to it, you know you're awesome
you cant please everyone, right?!
keep doing what you do
we went back to the same liquor store yesterday and i saw one of the chicks working, she has looooooong black curly (crunchy over processed) slick hair (woodbridge hair) and wears a huge fleece shirt over her uniform, to cover up her dumpy body. i purposely did not go to her check-out. while in the store i was thinking man, is it like part of your job to criticize every woman who comes in there when they leave? then i thought would i do the same, and honestly, as much of a judgmental dick i am, i wouldn't, i pass up on a lot opportunities to rip into people's outfits, meaning, i ignore other people, and if a hot babe (competition) comes in on my radar i do a mental note to take (copy) something from her outfit and thumbs up her in my head for a job well done. the only people i do slag in my head are the ones with bitchy attitude, no matter what they look like, but if it just so happens you're a cunt to me on top of being ugly, you give me no choice but to chalk it up to self-hatred and bitterness on account of looking like a troll, not my problem.
two years ago there is no way i could wear tight leggings or short shorts, and now that i can, the transformation you notice in how people treated you when they knew you before you were a cow, during when you were a cow and now after when you're ok (cos we are never ever satisfied are we) with your body, their attitude toward you changes slightly, resentment and bitterness, while all along during your starvation quest you were like i am dieting blah blah bla and they're like IT WON'T WORK because they do not want you to get thinner, but you stick to your guns and do it anyway, and fuck them.
though cos of my big mouth (confidence, FUNNIER THAN EVERYONE ELSE) i've always noticed some chips on shoulders, anyway, now it's monumental, to the point where you wonder hey i haven't seen so-and-so in a long time, wonder why that is?
the moral of this post is i am always a victim. always.
and no i do not wear this outfit everyday, i took a ton of pictures and didn't use them all at once
Saturday, July 05, 2008
Friday, July 04, 2008
cures moodiness, i am slipping some in fil's drink tonite ;)
just in time too, i'm pre-menses right now, tho aren't i always?
perfect, these will totally fit up my nostrils.
perfect for road vodka thanks guys.
then i left the room for an hour and someone got all up in my menses care package...
i took that tote out shopping yesterday, very spacious, anyway, if you have a teeny va-gine, i have like ten million tampons for you.
then off to ryerson for a project.
i had to take pictures of myself while being photographed a thousand times, then record some PSA material.
i am NOT awkward!
sass met me after work to babysit and destroy a shelf.
then we went for a brew at the imperial and saw this dinnerinthesky business over dundas square. last minute amex card holders were invited to dine, LUCKY!
i believe jen was one of the lucky dicks to experience this.
then tv on the radio as you already know about.
have yet to sew up that slit.
these pants, i tell you, people can't handle the red, like they half-admire them half-attempt to scowl me into oblivion. lighten up squares! another thing, my short shorts, my buddy paul overheard two cashiers at the lcbo slaggin' on my shorts after i left, he was in line and heard them say "...if I wore shorts like that..." what? what would happen? nothing, cos you CAN'T wear shorts like that. get OVER it and focus on yourself. i'm getting pretty tired of being treated so shitty from bitter chicks all over town just cos they're insecure and forgot to take care of their own shit.
Oh by the way, I don't want to start shit but after you left the LCBO, your clerk and my clerk started talking about your shorts. I totally gave them cut eye. They were both overweight too, so when the one girl said "if I wore shorts like that..." my only thought was "but you couldn't wear shorts like that". The two skinny female clerks there are faster and friendlier, I should've just waited in one of their line-ups.
omg what else did they say!!!!!
That was it, I wasn't paying attention then I clued in when I realized they had just finished talking about you.
you should have said THATS MY FRIEND YOU ARE TALKING ABOUT
I should have but I was too shocked. You're right, those clerks like to start stuff, you didn't even say anything to them to get them started.
happens to me ALL the time
everywhere i go
ugly people treat me shitty then play the victim
ungh, also i was with my TALL HANDSOME BOYFRIEND did they take note of that? you can't walk around with a HOT BABE DUDE if you don't make an effort to at least match him in the looks dept.
this print busts me up. sigh.
we are going away tomorrow now i don't have to kill myself! and why do we always go away when i am a fat pre-menstrual pig, i also haven't crapped in like DAYS.
oh YEAH happy fourth of july all you amerinoids!
all you dudes said happy canada day to us and were like BUT I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE MEANS!!! yeah me either i guess, in any event, we got our party over with first so i think that means we win. thanks for stickin' with my blog even though you don't understand how i talk eh. i will make more of an effort to post american material for you to enjoy.
someone really wants me to do this post so i'm doing it for what seems like the millionth time, anyway, there were two "things" i did, two phases of the raymi diet, the first one was totally unhealthy and ridiculous and you were all NO NO NOT going to work, and it WORKED, i lost 20lbs. the second phase you all would not shut up about either, like i was even asking for your input, all i said was i am going to lose more weight and THIS is how i am going to do it, then i did it, and it worked. voila. i can't find the post where i said this is my new diet, anyway, basically it consisted of eating, not starving myself, lots of meats and greens and yogurt, NO CARBS which equals no rice or pasta or bread, NO STARCH, NO BEER etc etc. so i rode that wave for awhile NO JUNK FOOD NO CHIPS NO GREASE it's not rocket science, substitute egg whites for eggs w/ yolk. um. drink less. inevitably you will navigate off your diet and say fuck it once in awhile and put your face in a slice of pizza, and that's ok, in the beginning when you shut off the intake of carbs you feel demented for a good three weeks, your head hurts and you feel really dumb. WORTH IT! you get used to it and then it goes away, that demented feeling. (though i pretty much feel demented all the time anyway so no bigz)
i'm now at a point where i dunno, i think my metabolism has come back with avengeance, it's been two years sans anti-depressants now, so if you're on anything, i think after awhile no matter what it is impossible to lose weight on medication, and NO i am NOT telling you to go off your pills, just saying i decided i would rather be sad and skinny instead of sad and fat. they weren't working for me anymore, AND i was drinking all the time on them and as it turns out zoloft gives one an insatiable urge and desire to drink copious amounts of alcohol, awesome, as in NOT awesome.
if i just stopped drinking i would be a rake and y'all would be like stop starving yourself, it would get really annoying, or you'd think i was doing blow.
so here's what you do to lose weight or to stay slim, eat HEALTHY, eat BORING, once in awhile you have to take one for the team and just DEAL by not stuffing your face with croutons, pretend there is always a pool party on the weekend and wearing a t-shirt over your suit is out of the question. drink vodka/gin sodas with lime/lemon, cut down on wine intake, and sugar, skim milk in your coffee, eat yogurt, eat some cold cuts everytime you walk into the kitchen, walk everywhere, take the stairs, do sit-ups, buy smaller clothing. lots of protein and sashimi!
there's also this crazy diet where you cut out meat and dairy and fat and lose a bunch of weight in seven days i do not have the willpower for that, here read this. good luck with that. and this is the low carbs list thing.
BOOKMARK THIS POST I DON'T WANT TO BLOG ABOUT THIS EVER AGAIN.
Thursday, July 03, 2008
i have been craving jerk sauce for a few days now, it hit peak last nite when i came home and smeared some on my last half of tuna sandwich (yesterday i ate THREE tuna sandwiches)(and that's it)(anyway) tonite is jerk chicken nite so i went out to get fixins from dominion (they carry the brand of tipsy jerk i prefer, loblaws has the other saltier kind (lame) even though it's a million times more fattening (the tipsy jerk is) I DON'T CARE because it is a million times more delicious!) fuck enough brackets? and so as i am power marching and starving past spadina/bloor i see all those guys with black zipper binders and some rubbermaid thing, all chatting away, i maneuver my way around and through them thinking YES free! and what do ya know, one RUNS after me saying hey hey hi what's your name lauren i say then he says whatever his dumb name is i say what are you selling and quicken my pace almost speed-walking, and so he matches my speed, he chuckles oh no not selling anything why would you think that? oh well the fact that you are SPEED WALKING ALONG SIDE ME AND YOU ARE A STRANGER (i don't say that) but i do point at his binder and say BECAUSE OF THAT and he laughs some more, no no i'm not selling anything, i'm not scamming anyone and i'm not a creeper or anything like that. oh so this ISN'T creepy right now? coulda fooled me. anyway he says BUT do you like children? what kind of question is that i'm thinking and honestly say uh well nah whatever not really i don't know thinking he's going to rail into me about starving third world kids then i see on his binder it says PLAN or something else fishy, and now we are at the doors of dominion (i was going to use that as my out even though i wanted to walk to the wine store first but i feared this ding-a-ling would speed walk alongside me all the fucking way there) so i turn to him and say accusingly ARE YOU ANTI-ABORTION? and right then and there his veneer of chill cracks and he disgustingly spits out YES and i go SEE YA and take off as he is calling my name behind me down the street going aw come on lauren we can work this out! WTF RIGHT! then this white old guy asks me what was that guy saying and i jump a mile cos two strangers now in the span of minutes are talking to this guy i blurt out oh pro-life bullshit and immediately regret it cos this dude looks like he may be conservative but he says oh he wants you to vote "insert some dude's name i have never heard before but assume is conservative" and then we both snort and then he says i thought he was mormon, trying to convert you, this guy is also walking just as fast as i am so i'm like great now we are in a conversation walking in the same direction, so i go yeah, not today buddy, (as in there will be NO conversions today) dude gets the hint, takes his pace down a clip and off i go miraculously into the sun right into some doctors w/o borders chick canvasing, oh good grief. then on my way back the black history month shiesters are at it again in front of shoppers. so damn pushy.
oh and there is NO meat whatsoever at dominion right now what the fuck.
oh one more thing, the gap between my two front teeth is almost closed, magical!
AWWWWWWW fil just brought me home a ceramic hair straightener!
ha my bad i just googled PLAN, it's sponsoring children stuff. oh me and my emotions! well, they need a NEW approach, plan for THAT.
BUT here's a guy who likes children, specifically his son's girlfriend!
and check these comments haha.
merkley???: hi raymi the minx
i had dinner with three laurens last night
my world is filled with laurens
but only one raymi
are they pronounced loren or luhren like me
merkley???: i dont pronounce your name luhren
me: well thats how it is
is that how your mom says it?
i'd never call you lauren anyway
it's only raymi as far as i'm concerned
me: yes raymi is good
but luh-ren is how my parents say it
it was their choice
merkley???: they were obviously drunk
i actually think i tend to pronounce that name more like lawren
which is how it looks
but i am highly evolved
me: its a combo hybrid of luh and law
merkley???: i'm between law and lor with a smidge of luh
i think you'd let my natural pronunciation fly
me: i would not
merkley???: thats cuz you arent laid back
me: people who call me lauren do so condescendingly like they have an "in" with me
no if my name is pronounced a certain way my entire life i cant just make allowances
merkley???: thats like when people think they are being cute and they call me dave
me: like eastern euros have weird ways to say katarina
merkley???: those people are not clever
they get really mad if u fuck it up
thats not even remotely funny
merkley???: but they say it like they found out a big secret
and they are instantly dropped off my to do list
me: dave is your real name?
merkley???: its my first name
me: but yeah thats how people say lauren to me too
merkley???: i bet
me: like they are super smart
merkley???: meanwhile we think -- idiot
one time this girl was going -- "i know your name is DAVE, so i'm gonna call you DAVE --
and i said well i'm gonna call you CUMFART!
and i still call her cumfart when i see her
does she get mad
merkley???: well she doesnt bug me much thats for sure
nobody wants to be called cumfart in front of friends
me: hahaha im doing my archives thing and came across this gem, remember it:
ok what did one chandelier say to another?
is chandel 'ier (here)?
merkley???: i dont remember that
me: you commented and said yes you are definitely drunk still
merkley???: i'm good at quips
me: ha ha -- you're so drunk. those are drunk jokes. aka not funny when you're not drunk, hilarious when you are.
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yeah they're borderline dad jokes too i just laid down for a bit and watched some of a league of their own and cried to it twice, two sad parts in a row and now i don't feel nauseous anymore. is chandel here? AHHAHAHAHHAHAA
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cos i say in the post man i must be drunk still
july 2007 archives time ya dicks!
awesome strikes again.
ok not horny anymore.
art man it's so, so, art, man, woah, yeah? yeah.
fil planet wasted.
it's mmmmmm o'clock.
july 2006 archives cont'd.
canada day pics
i can't believe how fat i thought i was at this time in my life, never underestimate the power of drugs and an abusive boyfriend.
sneaky disease art.
where i told fil his nostrils were different sizes BIG MISTAKE so for the rest of the nite we got to talk about how fil's nose is FINE THE WAY IT IS.
some of us dont got no trust funds, you hippie
this one has pink piping and little pockets for my juice money punch me please.
fil STILL won't cave and get these teeny weeny trunks!
RIP midtown :(
me: cid is on my arm i am typing with my left hand
it is annoying as hell
scott is a loud talker so when he had to make a phonecall i told him to go in the bedroom cos i knew the fucking fred penner acoustic guitar playing neighbour asshole would appreciate the deep tone of scott's voice coming through the wall.
hop into my delorean lets go back to last friday
then i say what is wrong with you and he says no what is wrong with you!? NOTHING WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU etc.
our waitress blew, not until she realised i had "connections" with her employer did she stop blowing. some frozen grapes were sent over and she is like uh these are for you and do you know why? with loads of attitude, like it was a test - way to be professional.
she got up to dance near me and whipped me in the face and back of the head with her amazon hair a few times, thanks.
HOW TO SNACK LIKE A DRUNK/STONER CHAMP
yeah it's so overwhelming to verbally abuse a woman likely suffering from alzheimers and cannot fend for herself, way to go dickbag
how cute are british people?
if i were to somehow meet rihana and she had her umbrella, could i like, demand to stand under it with her, is her song like a mutually binding-contract if i buy it off itunes?
mine, note the cardboard. i wasn't planning to eat it all in one sitting, fil helped, then gave me a WICKED COOL LECTURE about recycling!
the other dirties are on his flickr.
pauper's, nice patio, if you like drinking amongst nerdy annex spinsters and guys with eyebrow piercings.
cos lesbironi is such an event
me: are you going to pick wildflowers and water them with rainwater and drink rainwater from your satchel canteen that is covered in oldschool army tarp
oh man i am dying of laughter right now and i am crying can't breathe that video never tires.
robofunk's mushroom experience HAHAHAHHAHHA
i am going to draw a picture in MS paint to represent the sadness brb.
i am smirking like an imp because this dude is all up in fil's space telling him how to take pictures and he just wouldn't shut the fuck up or detect that he was annoying the shit out of us.
the most annoying thing about nerd magnet bands is the type of nerds that come out, they think they own the band and fuck you if you get in the way
I AM A DRAGON YOU ARE NO MATCH FOR ME LANCELIONIVAT YOUR TRICKSY SPELLS ARE FUTILE AGAINST MY GREEN BALL OF WRATH WREEEEEUUUURAWR!
MY shroom story
chandalier jokes never get old.
oh god! this food! fuck i want it again right NOW!
jesus christ where do you think you are, put your shoes back on you gross losers, this isn't your playroom!
you can always tell the suburban kids from the city kids at shows, especially if it's at a place like the phoenix, last nite was tv on the radio (a 30 dollar ticket!)(we had guest list, i would never pay that much)(i mention the 30 dollars cos what idiot would pay that much for a show and take their shoes off at it)(am i crazy? or is it not totally arrogant to cruise on a couch nodding off in your socks on anyone's couch but your own?) anyway, these babies couch hogged the entire time with their shoes off like they just hit the bong and it's totally fine to just you know, relax shoeless in a dirty bar. stop you are embarrassing my SOUL! basically everyone was high who went to this show, high and useless. what fun. oh and there was some guest list drama that i'm debating whether i should burn a bridge or not over by railing about it on my blog (everyone will know who i'm talking of regardless), and it's with the SAME person i chose to not previously burn a bridge with, past incidences is what i'm saying, a notoriously despised person within the industry already, a total bulldog. anyway, coffee first, gossip second.
Wednesday, July 02, 2008
my comments are down, the internet is broken, there really is no point to being on a laptop right now if we can't even talk about how great my hair looks or how funny i am, if you really want to share your opinions with me right now you can email me and i will put your words into this post and then we can get on with our lives. i'm uploading some vids on youtube right now and there are some pics from yesterday on my flickr i am too fat to put here. i guess i should shower, it's been daaaaaays, i have to be on camera in two hours i almost forgot and tonite we are seeing oh what the hell a package is downstairs BRB.
you know when couples start to look like each other...